My story begins in the late 80`to early 90`s. The Tv show 60 minutes had a segment about the Navajo Indians in New Mexico. The Elders were calling back all those young people caught up in drugs and alcohol to come back to the Medicine (peyote) and back to their roots. I remember them speaking of the Medicine and how it helped the soldiers returning from war with PTSD. I knew at that time that the story they were telling really touched me and I remember thinking if ever I found myself in a hard way I would seek out those Navajo and their Medicine myself.
All that was left behind and forgotten about until early this year when I had just added a new person to my facebook account. A friend had asked that person to post that there would be a Native American Church meeting in the next month. I clicked join not really putting any thought into at all on what I was getting myself into.
That month became very bizarre very quicky as the day drew closer and closer I felt this need to empty out my soul of any guilt or if I had treated someone bad I had sought their forgiveness. All kinds of things came up prior to the meeting that I had long put in the denial folder. Not all of it is pretty to look at.
After all that was done I soon started coming up with excuses as to why I should not go to the meeting and not take Peyote. I was scared shitless as to how the Medicine was going to effect me.
My family got scared for me and tried to stop it. I tried stopping it. It was really like I was caught in some magnetic field that was drawing me out to that meeting.
Needless to say I made it to the meeting and the first thing to disappear when the Navajo Elder arrived was the anxiety about the whole affair. The ceremony was beautiful. So well thought out and prepared for.
I cannot share to deeply what happens in a ceremony as you should really try that for yourself if you have that calling. I can only really say there is nothing to fear in the Medicine only what is inside your soul. If you come to the Medicine with good intention only good things will happen.
The medicine showed me one important thing that I will share and that is real magic still exists whether we believe in it or not.
That alone has changed my life in many ways.